To Do List

My bags are packed, I'm ready to go...
Off to St. John's in the Virgin Islands tomorrow! Yay!!! Hopefully the extended forecast is wrong because it says it's supposed to rain every day. Oh well, I've got the easy cheese ready for snorkling (it supposedly attracts fishies) so I'm ready to go. But I got thinking...once I get back from this trip, I'll only have about a month and a half left before I have to leave. Yikes! I'm beginning to think that leaving home will be pretty emotional. I mean, I will be leaving my family, boyfriend, and all my friends. Man, that's going to be rough. So I have to make this summer awesome. I thought I'd put together a little summer to-do list and if anyone wants to do these things with me, that would be cool.

Things To Do in Summer 2005
1.) Go to a drive in movie
2.) Go hiking
3.) Go to the zoo
4.) Go swimming
5.) Stay up late watching fun movies with friends
6.) Go on a picnic
7.) Eat Swensons often because I will miss that stuff when I'm in Indiana
8.) Have a bon fire with my friends and stay outside until it's really late
9.) I would say camping, but in truth, I would only do camping if there was a promise of no bugs
10.) Star gaze
11.) Read a lot of books
12.) Take a walk every day
13.) Roll down a hill
14.) Play tennis
15.) Pick tomatos in the rain (o man, that's nostalgic!)
16.) Complete this list and have fun

College is creeping up way too soon. It's strange because I've spent the last 10 months only wanting to leave and now that I've made a decision and reality is setting in, the only thing I want to do is stay. I'm going to get eaten alive out there! I dont' know what the hell I'm doing! I have no major, no direction, and the other day my mom asked me to get a deposit slip and I didn't even know what it was! Plus, I'm afraid of drive-throughs, cafeteria lines, banks, and feet! This is bad. My grandmother got me this book on preparing for college and the first few chapters are all very pessimistic, yet realistic. It says things like "you will be lonely" and "you will cry" and "you will miss your parents" and "you will never see your high school sweet heart again." How sad is that?! And the book was written by some Notre Dame professor, so it's got to be pretty acurate of a Notre Dame student at least. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'M FREAKING OUT!!!!!! If anyone ever wants to talk about it, feel free to call me because right now, I don't really feel like approaching anyone on the subject myself. Geez if anyone told me that the anticipation would be this bad, I would have dropped out of school and been a car mechanic or a waitress or a spice girl or something. Anyway, I have to go do something to cheer myself up since I am quite depressed. Oh wait, I'm going to the Virgin Islands tomorrow. That's nice.